Im with your boyfie on this. mari dikerjakan segeraa. Haha

the reason I wanted to see you sooner, was so I can propose, give you the ring and start planning for getting married next year and start your paperwork process.

Him, November 2024 

I am telling several people in my circle. Since i was sooo confused to react to his chatt yesterday. Vinsk gave me a vidcall right away while my other circles laughing so hard into the part of "paperwork process". Overall, I could only tell you that the day is getting closer. Everything that we planned for will come. We had lots of things to discuss for sure. And yes, the paperwork is one of them. 

 

However, I was in the mood of blaming myself. Thinking of what kind of deeds he did in the past that he deserved to be with someone 'hard' like me. Someone who lives so far away from him, someone who has different religion with him, someone who works in a different country with his. I blamed myself that I hope things were easier for both of us, for him especially. Everytime i saw his 26-years-old picture, I could see how good man he was and he is right now. I start questioning myself like does he deserve to pass through all of this shit just to be with me? But Vins was right. No one's to blame. He is willing to do the effort. And so far, I had been so nice and just doing my part as well such as giving him so many options to discuss and to choose. I am no being hard to get. No. Everything just runs well and as it should be.  

 

And lol, the other circle gave me another reaction like "Oh my god, this is sooo adult type marriage thingy. Like let's do this shit fast so we can start our paperwork. I am so with your boyfie, Sar". LOL. Like yeah, we dont want to waste more time and year to be and to live together. 

 

 And yet again, Ya Allah, if he is the one. Please let him be. Please let us be and open our journey easier and make us stronger to face the path.