Better that we break

Oktober 02, 2010

Better that we break

Ga bisa terbayang, serasa lepas semua beban sore tadi
Yes, everyone ! finally saya putus ama dia !

Pas sore itu , jam 05.00 saya baru bangun tidur, check inbox HP
dan like I guess, ada beberapa pesan masuk
and one of them was him. . . .
Pertama rasanya ragu bangeet buat ngajak putus
Tapi tiba-tiba kata-kata dari Recto Verso by Dewi Lestari kembali terngiang

"Kau tak pantas untuk bersamaku jika alasannya karena aku takut sendiri.... Aku percaya, kau pantas untuk alasan yang lebih dari itu :) "

Yep, bulatkan hatimu, kumpul kan keberanian, lalu saya ketik sms
" I think , what about if we break up?
1 menit.....
2menit....
5 menit....
15 menit .... *duh, jangan2 dy marah - -"

lalu hape saya berdering, dan voilaaa... waaah betapa leganya, ternyata dia juga setuju buat putus
Lepas sudaah beban sayaaa, and yes, I'm feelin so free like a bird get out from the cage

Lalu cepet-cepet saya kasih tau semua bestie saya. Yah respon pertama tentu saja "kok bisa? atau Kenapa? atau How come? dan sejenisnya

Kenapa? I dont know why too. Honestly, there's nothin wrong with our relationship.
Ga ada masalah, ga ad konflik, semua fine-fine saja. Dan disinilah letak permasalahannya. Hubungan yg datar ini yang bikin saya jenuh? Beneran.... semua nya terkesan monoton. Yes, monoton. Itulah kata kata yang tepat buat deskripsiin. *kamu aneh, Sar. ga dikasih masalah dan cobaan ama Tuhan malah ga suka".

konflik, perselisihan itulah yang membuat sebuah ikatan semakin kuat dan berkesan.

Yah ga taulah, mungkin inilah resiko LDR. Okeh, mungkin ini bakalan menjadi kasus LDR pertama sekaligus terakhir yang saya punya. Sumpaah, ga enak banget, monoton, datar, paling smsan telponan, ga lebih dari itu. Saya ga nyalahin siapa-siapa, apalagi dia, tapi emang kondisi LDR itu ga enak. *bisa mati saya kalo dy baca terus salah sangka...hhi*

Makanya banyak yang rada kesal pas saya bilang, "alesan nya apa sar?"
"udah bosan"

Respon Fifi : "oh..." *emang teman saya yg paling ga responsif kauu :p*
Respon Vira : "Jiaah, Gaya muu sok-sok bosen , ntar karma baru "
Respon Lail : "ccd" *yang berarti cacad, dikarenakan lewat chatt*
Respon Wella : "jahat kaliiii kamu mak !"
Dan respon yang paling bikin saya ngakak diantara semuanya

Respon Sutria : "Apa, cuma alasan bosen sar kamu putus? Ckckck, gimana ntar kamu bersuami? Bosen terus lu ceraiin gitu?"

wkwkwk, aduh teman saya yg satu ini emang jauh banget gaya mikirnya - -"

Please do not blame me if you are not in my position :), you never know what it feels like.
Tapi sumpah, saya lega dan bangga sekali sama dia. Kenapa?

Karena ga ada tissue yang perlu saya basahin, ga ada air mata buat saya tangisi dan ga ada kata kotor serta sumpah serapah buat masalah.

Intinya saya bangga ama dia, dia merespon nya dengan cool. Putus dengan cara baik-baik, intinya we still friends :). Jarang loh bisa putus baik-baik gini. Banyak teman dekat saya yg putus ga pernah kontakan lagi bahkan sekadar bertatap muka saja ogah saking dendamnya - -".And us? No. I'm very proud of you :)
Sepenggal kata buat dia yang ingin saya katakan tapi tak bisa terucap
*buat yg ga mo ngabisin waktu buat baca, rapopo kalo ga dibaca*

Dear Nobita
my superuniqe (ex) boyfriends that I ever had,

We have been pass this 5 months together since 13 May 2010, and all that I can say is "thanks a lot for this amazing 5 months. I do not what I feel right now, Should I be happy or sad? Because I feel both of them. I'm so happy to being free, but I also sad to let you go and not being yours anymore. But we know 1 things, "nothing last forever in this world"

When you read this, do you remember the 1st time when we meet? Yes, I do remember it. It was in your class, XE. When I must introduce myself in front of your class. I also remember you ask me 1 question right? But unfortunately I forget what you ask? Hhi. You also told me, I was the one that make you believe "love at the first sight" is exist in this world because you fallin in love me at the first sight :)

And so, you make easier my 21 Hard days in jogja. You never know right? That I have problems in jogja with my pangkalpinang team, but you, you make my days easier though I have a lot of problems. You make me fallin in love with Jogja, and never cannot forget your lovely hometown. Also 1 things, I missed the day when we go cycling together. We talked each other all way long :).

And I also still remember exaclty your message when you told me that you like me. Hahaha, it was not an easy way too, right? Because we have a lil misunderstood that time, hahaha. I was misunderstood your message, and you try to make me believe that I was wrong, iI still remember that you said "aku harus lakuin apa supaya kamu percaya, nulis surat pake darah kah?" Hahaha, but at least I was yours too :)

And so you gave me your precious stick drum via Devisa negara. Thanks a lot for this, I wish I could see you playing drum with your band, it would be nice of course. But the condition and this distance have fell us apart. So I promise to keep this stick drum in my life and tell my children and my grandchildren about the story behind of the stick drum, yes the story of us :)

Well that's all I could write. So sorry If I was the first one that ask you to break up. For your information honey, I do it this because I dont want to imprison you. You deserve to get somethin more than this. You deserve to get more happines, and I believe you more deserve to have a more "CLOSER" girlfriend, not like me.

All I can do is just wishin